when you realize exactly how many people are out there in the world. It’s so easy to be overwhelmed when we are constantly bombarded with new Tweets, Friend Requests, Text Messages, and Phone Calls all by different people throughout each day. And that’s exactly where I find myself: with a spontaneous burden placed upon my shoulders that weighs me down under a yoke of so much “friendship”. This quarter, as I have realized how much more involved I have become around campus, I feel as if I can’t keep up with everyone. And this isn’t a “I’m just too popular” kind of rant, but a “I’m just spreading myself too thin once again and can’t invest into all these people like I want to” kinda thing.
Coming into college, I would say that I assumed all relationships from here through the rest of my life to be superficial yet plentiful. 30,000 Students? Just enough to have someone to eat with when I need them or to study with when I have to. How ignorant of me. In actuality, I have made some of my best friends in less than a year, and am so excited for the years to come. But at the same time, I am only one person. To make it worse, I’m that one person that wants to do it all and know them all.
Sounds stupid, and ultimately my worries are definitely self-inflicted, but it’s just that I’ve only recently learned about being intentional with people in regards to relationships, and I want to make sure I can do that with people who I genuinely care about. So I guess that all I can do is literally make the most of my time with friends here, and keep trying to be as genuine as I can be. Might not be much resolution to this post, but hey, all this was just an empty thought/worry, I guess?
